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MOVED TO DREAMWIDTH!!! If you have one, please friend me there: foozled_up
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So a lot of people from twitterstuck have been contacting me worriedly, because I've been on and off the past two weeks. Heck, a lot of people have been contacting me in general being worried. I feel like I owe everyone an explanation for my absences in a way that's more than 140 characters on twitter.

I know I've been extremely unreliable the past two weeks. I feel extremely apologetic for it. I'm sorry, guys. I'm trying my very best but I've got this thing around August and September where I coccoon into myself and hibernate.

I'm trying not to do that this year, so if I can ask people the favour that if they don't see me for awhile, if you can try to check up on me, I would appreciate it. I'm not hiding because I want to. I feel trapped in the fact I keep having trouble contacting more people than myself. Because unfortunately, the thing I hate to say is that yes, there is a reason to worry.

There's a few things going on right now and it's more than just my foot being injured. I have social anxiety disorder and it's striking me pretty bad. So's my depression. And my PTSD. And my anxiety. And I can't sleep at all. Basically, I'm fucked. I see my psych on Wednesday.

Usually I spend a lot of time on twitterstuck when I'm like that but due to the aforementioned cocooning, it's the opposite this time. August and September are when I hide because they're the months that hold three bad anniversaries for me: my mom dying, my mom's birthday, and when I was infected with lyme.

So basically I usually hibernate in a ball and depression and PTSD and nerves, but I really don't want to do that this year. So I'm reaching out to my friends and saying, if you don't see me, please message me? Email ( penguins.stride @ gmail ) or facebook (I can provide the link privately) or twitter DM ( my personal davesbluebox or dave's account cogsnotfrogs ). AIM ( areyou99 ) yahoo!Messanger ( carabba@rocketmail.com ) skype ( gostriding ).

I usually try not to ask these things because I don't want to bother people, but since so many people have been contacting me and asking if I'm okay / how they can contact me / how they can check up on me, I feel safe at reaching out.

And I really want to say this: I almost never feel safe in that. But this year, I do. I feel very okay in it. I love you guys. You've changed my life and you've changed it for the better. I love you and am thankful for you every day.

I'm going to try harder, because I know I need to for everyone who's worried about me, but also for myself. I'm going to try to steer myself towards a better path. And I thank you guys in advance for being there while I do it. And for everything you've done for me by just being around. Seriously. I love you.
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I don't know where anyone is anymore. Who has twitter, who has plurk, who still has a Livejournal and who absconded to Dreamwidth or the like. I've lost track of a lot of people that I don't want to lose track of.

So this is me asking, guys, where is the best place to check on updates for each of you? I love you all and want to keep up with you better than I've been able to. Which I apologize for. So I'm gonna start posting to LJ again but as I said above, I don't know who is doing what anymore. :/

Let me know?

My tweets

Feb. 22nd, 2012 01:54 am
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  • Tue, 16:56: RT @DamonLindelof: COMMUNITY is back at 8 on the 15th. I have a good feeling about those numbers.
  • Tue, 17:00: been travelling since like 9am yesterday just got home also was walking from 1:30pm to 3:30pm i fully believe i am the tiredest person ever
  • Tue, 17:01: @crymaxing remind me to fill you in on plot ideas later so you can put in what you want to do and so it works for everyone! <3
  • Tue, 17:13: OH GOD does anone know how to fix a monitor casing part of mine broke off and i can't get it fixed for a few weeks
  • Tue, 17:14: RT @weirdopanty: sappy dave feelings brb writing a novel about it
  • Tue, 17:36: wtf are you even doing brobot
  • Tue, 17:47: i love you orson never leave you're the only person in the show that has fucking sanity right now even if you're also kind of creepy
  • Tue, 17:47: this is me admitting publically i watch desperate housewives the shame feel my shaaammeee
  • Tue, 17:48: susan you are so weird why do you polllute your children
  • Tue, 17:49: "is the father of your baby gay? oh no! oh, he's not? too bad, they're great with kids!" yeah, okay.
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My tweets

Feb. 17th, 2012 09:16 pm
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  • Fri, 00:46: RT @klondikeaura: @nomnombrainz is on my sofa. Times are awesome.
  • Fri, 00:50: tennesee is the brightest state ever, like, why? when the bus went through there every single building had like at least 20 lights on them
  • Fri, 00:53: rereading homestuck and finding out dave uses question marks hurts my brain. dave... i've been not using them for you! stop this switcharoo!

My tweets

Jan. 28th, 2012 01:59 pm
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  • Fri, 20:29: sorry guys i don't think i'll manage to be on today, i'm so tired it's impossible to stay up past now. THIS IS WAY EARLY FOR ME? argh
  • Fri, 20:31: hospitalizations/new med changing sleep schedule/several days of three hours sleep/winter fibro/stress/etc => yep
  • Sat, 00:30: RT @agoodshinkickin: That moment when you realize a good chunk of your gaming is inspired by Tony Soprano.
  • Sat, 01:57: @Chinglezard HAPPY BIRTHDAY <3
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  • Вс, 19:15: eating/maxalt then aim/rp/finishing sewing this hoodie. i think i'll do some prose RP tonight.
  • Вс, 19:18: RT @jephjacques: Brooklyn man proudly states that he had "no idea football was even still happening," NFL disbands in shame
  • Вс, 19:20: RT @6GoldenCoins: Fun fact, Superbowl autocorrects to Super owl.
  • Вс, 19:21: RT @DraculaButt: Dateline NBC: To Catch a Redditor
  • Вс, 19:34: I don't understand what these _ebooks accounts are. Can someone please tell me? What's the concept there?
  • Вс, 21:02: RT @ginomes: autoresponder, still the best alpha character (after roxy)
  • Вс, 21:06: why is twitterstuck dead of activity right now someone fix it
  • Вс, 21:54: RT @superidSour: @ginomes and then Roxy and dirk transformed RL's land into steampunk equestria
  • Вс, 22:13: i get my glasses and suddenly i'm mistyping everything as tits
  • Вс, 22:18: RT @WomansWisdom: Birds sing after a storm; why shouldn't people feel as free to delight in whatever remains to them? Rose F. Kennedy
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  • Пт, 19:39: omg guys the update. so the characters who are specifically in one place, my dave is from it. we made our stuff right after cascade
  • Пт, 19:39: thought of a bunch of bullshit reasons for our chars existing but now canon says we're right. and we thought we were off the wall impossible
  • Пт, 19:42: oh god i've felt for months that people would think the stuff i have backstory for dave was stupid and now there's canon to make it work;__;
  • Пт, 19:48: when i can i stop mentally flailing at the update my heart can't take it
  • Пт, 19:58: oh my god my typing is so terrible today (i'm correcting typos) there has got to be something productive i can do with this. maybe in RP
  • Пт, 20:37: i feel so up and down today, both physically and emotionally. bleh
  • Пт, 23:26: RT @ImACatMew: @weirdopanty hE HAS TO LEARN HOW TO GROOM AND CARESS HIS NUTS......
  • Сб, 00:07: wait beta orgies what, i lost track of my twitter feed and the first thing i see is orgies
  • Сб, 00:15: RT @WomansWisdom: People who fight fire with fire usually end up with ashes. Abigail Van Buren
  • Сб, 00:40: oh my god i just made a noise from suddenly completely unable to handle KK's cute
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  • Вс, 20:19: aaaughhh goddammit michigan weather i live in the country so snow took down my internet it's been hours
  • Вс, 20:20: trying to run aim takes the entire network down for hours
  • Вс, 20:20: why
  • Вс, 20:20: @klondikeaura are you around to email ;n;
  • Вс, 20:21: karkat and dave are hatching a matchmaking plan what does it say about a pairing when they need THOSE TWO to auspice them into working
  • Вс, 20:21: i mean LOOK AT WHO THE AUSPICES ARE
  • Вс, 21:00: RT @IAmMakingAPie: There needs to be a Fuck Yeah G-Man tumblr.
  • Вс, 21:05: i'm only okay with dirk instead of dick because it sounds like the name of an old timey private detective
  • Вс, 21:05: dirk strider at your service if you know what i mean
  • Вс, 21:11: http://t.co/igy2VDqk i wasn't kidding, dave and karkat really are planning auspicing/matchmaking this is going to be a beautiful trainwreck
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My tweets

Jan. 15th, 2012 01:31 pm
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  • Sat, 17:12: new hair colour now, purple. please ignore the fact i am utterly incapable of looking nice in webcam photos http://t.co/rm5sWtQz
  • Sat, 17:29: RT @itsf8te: sassy gay death the kid...
  • Sat, 17:29: RT @tentaclePsych: @cogsnotfrogs Ask Karkat instead. I am quite sure he would enjoy sharing your masculine asteroid vandalism acts with ...
  • Sat, 17:59: oh my god internet what are you doing please work
  • Sat, 18:00: @klondikeaura aim isn't letting me on D:
  • Sat, 18:12: My secret: I am literally incapable of playing any troll that has puns or habits based on how speech sounds. But I dearly wish I was.
  • Sat, 18:12: learning disabilities ahoy
  • Sat, 18:22: @auspiced if only jake were a girl, then you could make a username that puns on english muffins
  • Sat, 18:25: RT @ImACatMew: @superidSour he made him specifically for screwing Jake, since he knew how badly Jake wanted the real thing. Best friend ...
  • Sat, 19:17: first thing sassy gay john says to a dave is a compliment i see where this is going already
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  • Сб, 17:12: new hair colour now, purple. please ignore the fact i am utterly incapable of looking nice in webcam photos http://t.co/rm5sWtQz
  • Сб, 17:29: RT @itsf8te: sassy gay death the kid...
  • Сб, 17:29: RT @tentaclePsych: @cogsnotfrogs Ask Karkat instead. I am quite sure he would enjoy sharing your masculine asteroid vandalism acts with ...
  • Сб, 17:59: oh my god internet what are you doing please work
  • Сб, 18:00: @klondikeaura aim isn't letting me on D:
  • Сб, 18:12: My secret: I am literally incapable of playing any troll that has puns or habits based on how speech sounds. But I dearly wish I was.
  • Сб, 18:12: learning disabilities ahoy
  • Сб, 18:22: @auspiced if only jake were a girl, then you could make a username that puns on english muffins
  • Сб, 18:25: RT @ImACatMew: @superidSour he made him specifically for screwing Jake, since he knew how badly Jake wanted the real thing. Best friend ...
  • Сб, 19:17: first thing sassy gay john says to a dave is a compliment i see where this is going already
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I'm moving over to Dreamwidth at [personal profile] foozled_up . I don't come on LJ anymore because the botched coding causes severe security risks to anyone who loads the website. But if you have Dreamwidth, friend me there? :D

Also I have plurk at groovify and twitter at nomnombrainz .
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  • Сб, 03:14: RT @sW4Gm4sT3R1337: (it's nic cages birtday for those of you who don't know)
  • Сб, 03:23: thank you guys ;.; for saying i don't suck, that does help
  • Сб, 03:54: yeah... i love you guys and thank you so much ;.; <3 for being such great people and such fun/good to play with too
  • Сб, 03:54: bleh i'm sorry i listened to jerks, next time I need to tell them to stuff it
  • Сб, 03:58: RT @Apache_Flame: @SpaceCorpDir 17532: A defence of "he is a git" is not sufficient reason for ignoring space corps directives.
  • Сб, 04:58: i love the terminator show but the blatant overtones of "LOL MOMMY'S ABUSIVE EMOTIONALLY AND SOMETIMES PHYSICALLY" are pretty annoying.
  • Сб, 04:59: yeah, it's a logical path to predict from after terminator 2 and we can't take 3 or 4 into account, but logic doesn't make it correct
  • Сб, 05:01: terminator 3 and 4 get into implying she's abusive to everyone else but not him, which makes a whole lot more sense
  • Сб, 05:01: especially considering she godifies her own son to begin with
  • Сб, 05:04: taking all my energy to repress the urge to have dave declare random characters part of his pimp team
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  • Пт, 10:07: RT @klondikeaura: Anyone interested in video games and/or turning something bad into something good should follow @OceanMarketting (not ...
  • Пт, 10:09: RT @OceanMarketting: Hello to all of the new followers today! thank you for helping me make this account a positive thing! please tell y ...
  • Пт, 10:10: betty crocker twitter finally starts posting nice looking food when I can't look at food without wanting to throw up. FUCKING BETTY CROCKER
  • Пт, 10:14: Did you know they're still persecuting Dr. Jones? No? Did you know who he is? Go read @melodic_cool last few tweets, then what I post later.
  • Пт, 10:15: RT @melodic_cool: sick children are bad for governments' business
  • Пт, 10:16: may go home today, may go home tomorrow? i dunno, they haven't decided yet. :(
  • Пт, 10:18: need more sleep less meds when I go "time to rp my illness is tummy and cure is dave strider" & have to be told why that sounds wrong/weird
  • Пт, 11:21: sdjlkasd fucking christ gmail, why are you advertising rife machines at me, i will fucking cut you
  • Пт, 11:22: http://t.co/o4ZJ9E93 <-- one of the worst offenses to humans and medical science ever.
  • Пт, 11:22: YOU TOO CAN CURE CANCER AND THE COMMON COLD BY ELECTROCUTING YOURSELF! IT WORKS FOR THE ELECTRIC CHAIR!
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