the call is coming from inside your house

( what a dangerous penguin )

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Oh my god I am kind of creeped out.

I was running various Doctor Who episodes through Sonic Acid Pro and ( Not spoilerish, but some would want it under a cut anyway )

Just.... excuse me, what was that, again?

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Third day of Seroquel XR, all the side effects are gone. This is why psychiatrists love me. I've got the 'makes you hungrier' sticking around, but since another of my meds was suppressing the hunger signals (medical anorexia rather than eating disorder anorexia), it just balances out. I feel exactly the way I always feel when I'm normalized - my OCD is restless, but that'll settle. It's jumped up because I'm not used to this.

Used to what?

Used to feeling like I am a human being and having no depression prevent me from anything. I feel no depression. Okay, let's emphasize that. I feel no depression.

That doesn't mean I'm not getting sad by sad things or anxious by anxious things, but compared to other med times, I can judge it. But it's never been this good.

I cannot think of a time past when I was five years old when I had no depression. I can remember having symptoms in kindergarten. I'm sort of scared to not have depression. What controls me now, myself? Am I even capable of doing that? I have literally never, ever, ever lived with the current emotional state I have.

Here's where we pray that this stays like the Welbutrin XL has and is a miracle drug.

But here's where Mandy freaks out a little, too, and in an understandable way.

Jeeze.