I need to read
CryoBurn (the new Vorkosigan book I LOVE YOU BUJOLD YOU WROTE ANOTHER ONE YAY) like I need to breath. Or something. Except it costs $14 on Amazon and $25 off of it. The literature God hates my guts. :| I am hoping that I can possibly get it from the library but I need to get them to forget the fact they have my soul out for collection. (My mom died around the time a bunch of books were supposed to go back and I discovered I had not returned them about a year later when collections sent me a letter).
I'm being advised to pirate it, but... I refuse. I can never pirate anything she does. I waited years to read
Winterfair Gifts because it wasn't available in a way I could purchase. (I finally read it when the Baen Free Library took pity on us all and released it, dkdskd. They don't have it up anymore, but).
(Also speaking of the Bae Free Library, apparently they released
Warrior's Appreciate for free so if you want to try reading the Vorkosigan novels you have nothing to lose.
READ IT GO GO GO)
This new book is very important to me for multiple reasons. It's my favourite book series and it was my mom's favourite book series too. She got me into it, originally, then I got her back into it when I started following it. She'd been waiting since
Diplomatic Immunity for a new Miles story. It wasn't even 'a story in this universe', it was 'a Miles story' - a distinction that is necessary to make, as the subject matter is far more variable with these books than most other series. She had no way of getting ahold of
Winterfair Gifts, either. But it's not even just 'new Miles book', it's 'the story she talked all the time about wanting to read'. Bujold hadn't given any indication that she wanted to write this at the time, but it's what has apparently come next. So it's both really awesome and an indescribable sort of shot to the chest?
With so many series, this would happen anyway, because an established book series is eventually going to follow a predictable pattern with the stories it needs to tell. But this story is far from predictable as the next in line, so it's actually kind of amazing that she nailed it so well, years before the publishing date. It was predictable that eventually cryogenics were going to enter the books again, for so many reasons that I can't list without spoiling the series. But as to when, how, and where? Well, there was no way to have any idea about that at all.
It's a terrible sort of feeling that I will get to read what my mom wanted to read and she never will, that I will get to read a story that follows some very specific wants my mom had as a fan. Therefore, this becomes my problem just as much as it's a reward. How
do I read this without feeling irrationally guilty, or worse?
I have no idea how to address that at all. :|