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Dec. 24th, 2010 09:06 amI just spent nearly three hours arranging JBBS charts, lists, assignments and pitch-hits. I spent two hours earlier as well. I'm gonna spend two hour chunks throughout today. I am doing all this by hijacking my sister's computer while she is taking finals, so wow, that's real compatible, but we're making it work. We may have found a tower in the house I can use for now, at least. It's a super old computer but that's better than nothing, right?
All this is good distractions, really, even the stressful things. My mind's screwed around from good and bad things both, but it's a lot better than any other year. I feel like it might not be okay to not feel as bad as possible about this - like it's disrespecting my Dad if I don't? But he wouldn't want anyone to be like that. Meh.
( Death stuff )
When it's spring I'm going to go to where both their ashes are scattered. I haven't been since we scattered my Mom in 2006 and that's really something that needs to be rectified. Especially since Patrick needs to see it, too.
HP charged for the laptop so let's hope they sent it out. I specifically picked one that ships within 24 hours so they would have shipped it yesterday or be about to ship it today. Something may come to work the other laptop before that, let's hope one of those arrives soon. (Basically, it can't charge a battery on its own and my sister's power cord is now giving power to her laptop but it won't charge it. Without this one charging a battery, there's nothing to run my laptop with, meh.)
I've got a fever, the flu, a persistent headache-or-migraine and some vomiting cycle. ( Stomach stuff )
I took a Maxalt last night and while it suppressed my migraine enough for awhile, it also gave me derealization. What the fuck? I guess it might be because I haven't taken Maxalt in so long because my insurance keeps playing around (why do all my stories end with that?), I've got the side effects again. I'm okay with it, it was just really weird, especially when I was trying to do things I needed to do.
Derealization makes things really strange if you're doing fandom related things. Um.
( Migraine stuff )
Yeah, so short run, my day is going to be fixing JBBS stuff, doing things for Catie's birthday (<3) and talking to people if I can get chats to run. (Otherwise emailing like desperate, hahaha ._. .) I need to do a Toradol shot today. If it doesn't work, I'm still on ER watch for my headaches (especially since the steroids I'm on aren't doing too much). If it doesn't work I need to talk to them about whether I need to go in or if I can wait. But I refuse to go in on Christmas Eve. Absolutely, utterly refuse. Honestly, it could just be worse because of stress, anyway.
I'm sort of laughing because I get concerned as to whether I can finish my fic on time for JBBS and then I wordcount this and it's the same length I'd have to write a story for. Hahaha ._. Well.
Anyway, I'm pretty okay. Better than I expected to be, I think I got all my fucked up ness done yesterday. Now I'm just torturing my sanity with christmas stuff and marathonning Glee. I figure I have to see it someday, so I might as well marathon it while I don't have the choice to walk away, hahaha. Oh god i have so much to say about that thing once i have the time. whyyyyyyyyy.
Also, I am now bitter and mad about Gorillaz breaking up. I bet everyone expected that but me. Is this going to be the stages of mourning or something. Gah.
All this is good distractions, really, even the stressful things. My mind's screwed around from good and bad things both, but it's a lot better than any other year. I feel like it might not be okay to not feel as bad as possible about this - like it's disrespecting my Dad if I don't? But he wouldn't want anyone to be like that. Meh.
( Death stuff )
When it's spring I'm going to go to where both their ashes are scattered. I haven't been since we scattered my Mom in 2006 and that's really something that needs to be rectified. Especially since Patrick needs to see it, too.
HP charged for the laptop so let's hope they sent it out. I specifically picked one that ships within 24 hours so they would have shipped it yesterday or be about to ship it today. Something may come to work the other laptop before that, let's hope one of those arrives soon. (Basically, it can't charge a battery on its own and my sister's power cord is now giving power to her laptop but it won't charge it. Without this one charging a battery, there's nothing to run my laptop with, meh.)
I've got a fever, the flu, a persistent headache-or-migraine and some vomiting cycle. ( Stomach stuff )
I took a Maxalt last night and while it suppressed my migraine enough for awhile, it also gave me derealization. What the fuck? I guess it might be because I haven't taken Maxalt in so long because my insurance keeps playing around (why do all my stories end with that?), I've got the side effects again. I'm okay with it, it was just really weird, especially when I was trying to do things I needed to do.
Derealization makes things really strange if you're doing fandom related things. Um.
( Migraine stuff )
Yeah, so short run, my day is going to be fixing JBBS stuff, doing things for Catie's birthday (<3) and talking to people if I can get chats to run. (Otherwise emailing like desperate, hahaha ._. .) I need to do a Toradol shot today. If it doesn't work, I'm still on ER watch for my headaches (especially since the steroids I'm on aren't doing too much). If it doesn't work I need to talk to them about whether I need to go in or if I can wait. But I refuse to go in on Christmas Eve. Absolutely, utterly refuse. Honestly, it could just be worse because of stress, anyway.
I'm sort of laughing because I get concerned as to whether I can finish my fic on time for JBBS and then I wordcount this and it's the same length I'd have to write a story for. Hahaha ._. Well.
Anyway, I'm pretty okay. Better than I expected to be, I think I got all my fucked up ness done yesterday. Now I'm just torturing my sanity with christmas stuff and marathonning Glee. I figure I have to see it someday, so I might as well marathon it while I don't have the choice to walk away, hahaha. Oh god i have so much to say about that thing once i have the time. whyyyyyyyyy.
Also, I am now bitter and mad about Gorillaz breaking up. I bet everyone expected that but me. Is this going to be the stages of mourning or something. Gah.
