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Aug. 31st, 2011 12:28 amThe ability to write is strange. Lately, I've been writing things in my head: full works, sentences, grammar... but i don't write them down, I don't type them up, so they just go to waste. I have so many fanfics or LJ posts I could put together if I was typing these. But somehow I can't. And yet they are so fully finished in my brain?
I'm really not sure what's going on with that, but I think I have one X-men fanfic and three Soul Eater fanfics in there, one of which is a songfic for Aura that is ALREADY WRITTEN but it's in my head so it doesn't actually count.
I don't articulate myself very well as a consequence and it's a blow because I have all these great words I could say, but it's mixed up in whatever fuckery my language has become. Uhhh I don't even know. It makes for great typing posts on my RP plurk but in the real world where I'm not RPing a teenage boy that turns into a scythe, that doesn't float so well.
On the other hand, for the first time in my life I'm making fanart. I have to get the bravery to post it somewhere, but I'll have like ten pieces of Soul Eater fanart when I finish what I'm doing. Except I'm totally scared of posting so I have no idea what will actually happen with that!
At least the rest of my stuff is okay. Other than the inability to sleep I have been doing very well lately. I've been sick the past few days but that's nothing new. I see my pain doctor tomorrow to get on a new fibro medication which might actually help with the writing thing. My Fibro's gone untreated for six months, so... yeah.
I think I'm figured out a balance between the Gateway and the borrowed netbook too, so now I can feel safe to start contacting people again. My Digsby even gave me back my buddy list, so I will be IMing people at random the next few days. HELLO HOW ARE YOU RECONNECT EVEN IF WE HAVEN'T TALKED IN MONTHS OKAY. Yes, it's a very great plan.
We had to reboot Atomized into a brand new MOO core and I guess fresh cores don't come with things like 'who'? I did not know that', I'm not sure where to get these base codes but if anyone has any idea, please help?
I'm really not sure what's going on with that, but I think I have one X-men fanfic and three Soul Eater fanfics in there, one of which is a songfic for Aura that is ALREADY WRITTEN but it's in my head so it doesn't actually count.
I don't articulate myself very well as a consequence and it's a blow because I have all these great words I could say, but it's mixed up in whatever fuckery my language has become. Uhhh I don't even know. It makes for great typing posts on my RP plurk but in the real world where I'm not RPing a teenage boy that turns into a scythe, that doesn't float so well.
On the other hand, for the first time in my life I'm making fanart. I have to get the bravery to post it somewhere, but I'll have like ten pieces of Soul Eater fanart when I finish what I'm doing. Except I'm totally scared of posting so I have no idea what will actually happen with that!
At least the rest of my stuff is okay. Other than the inability to sleep I have been doing very well lately. I've been sick the past few days but that's nothing new. I see my pain doctor tomorrow to get on a new fibro medication which might actually help with the writing thing. My Fibro's gone untreated for six months, so... yeah.
I think I'm figured out a balance between the Gateway and the borrowed netbook too, so now I can feel safe to start contacting people again. My Digsby even gave me back my buddy list, so I will be IMing people at random the next few days. HELLO HOW ARE YOU RECONNECT EVEN IF WE HAVEN'T TALKED IN MONTHS OKAY. Yes, it's a very great plan.
We had to reboot Atomized into a brand new MOO core and I guess fresh cores don't come with things like 'who'? I did not know that', I'm not sure where to get these base codes but if anyone has any idea, please help?
