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Oct. 1st, 2011 08:27 pmI'm not sure why this won't stop being a crappy week. First the fibro, then being in too much pain to use the computer, and now my pharmacy screwing with me again. At least I know Monday is the end of it. But it means that I am having an incredibly hard time using the computer. Still. Except now it's twice as hard.
Anyway I check my email a lot! So for anything I need to do I'm gonna email people pretty soon. if you don't get an email from me and i'm supposed to do something, email ME. harmonicalsoul at gmail.
My pharmacy keeps only delivering seven days of zofran at a time even though they say they will fill it fully, and they've already been payed for it, they're just not giving it to me. I should say former pharmacy. I'm still doing my toradol through them because I have to, but I am not sticking with them anymore. Because right now, I'm out of things they said they'd deliver on thursday and still haven't. So now I'm out of everything they didn't fill until Monday.
Which is:
Zofran
Welbutrin XL
Propranolol
Seroquel XR
So I'm out of my medication that keeps me from having throwing up constantly, panic attacks, ADHD episodes, tachycardia episodes, severe PTSD symptoms, severe social phobia, uncontrolled OCD and hallucinations. I still have the Lamictal so at least I don't have to have suicidal ideations, but really? REALLY? It's probably really obvious why I have a hard time right now.
Yeah, pharmacy, fuck you too.
Also I ran out of my Flovent so I get to have a hard time breathing until Monday, too.
In the meantime I forgot how annoying it is to deal with OCD compulsions. Aaaargh.
I feel so horrible that I've been unreliable the past week. It's not like it's my <i>fault</i> but it's still annoying to let people down. Also I just want this to stop because I do not want to keep doing things like have multiple panic attacks over typing a post. I had not noticed exactly how much mental process I've made until now. I do not even know how I used to deal with this shit constantly. (I guess the point is I couldn't.)
My day today has involved sleeping until five and then staring blankly at absolutely nothing on the computer for three and a half more hours before realizing that much time had passed while doing nothing. And not eating anything because I'm both afraid of eating and afraid to ask for food even though I was asked what I want to get.
Awesome.
Anyway I check my email a lot! So for anything I need to do I'm gonna email people pretty soon. if you don't get an email from me and i'm supposed to do something, email ME. harmonicalsoul at gmail.
My pharmacy keeps only delivering seven days of zofran at a time even though they say they will fill it fully, and they've already been payed for it, they're just not giving it to me. I should say former pharmacy. I'm still doing my toradol through them because I have to, but I am not sticking with them anymore. Because right now, I'm out of things they said they'd deliver on thursday and still haven't. So now I'm out of everything they didn't fill until Monday.
Which is:
Zofran
Welbutrin XL
Propranolol
Seroquel XR
So I'm out of my medication that keeps me from having throwing up constantly, panic attacks, ADHD episodes, tachycardia episodes, severe PTSD symptoms, severe social phobia, uncontrolled OCD and hallucinations. I still have the Lamictal so at least I don't have to have suicidal ideations, but really? REALLY? It's probably really obvious why I have a hard time right now.
Yeah, pharmacy, fuck you too.
Also I ran out of my Flovent so I get to have a hard time breathing until Monday, too.
In the meantime I forgot how annoying it is to deal with OCD compulsions. Aaaargh.
I feel so horrible that I've been unreliable the past week. It's not like it's my <i>fault</i> but it's still annoying to let people down. Also I just want this to stop because I do not want to keep doing things like have multiple panic attacks over typing a post. I had not noticed exactly how much mental process I've made until now. I do not even know how I used to deal with this shit constantly. (I guess the point is I couldn't.)
My day today has involved sleeping until five and then staring blankly at absolutely nothing on the computer for three and a half more hours before realizing that much time had passed while doing nothing. And not eating anything because I'm both afraid of eating and afraid to ask for food even though I was asked what I want to get.
Awesome.
